33 Kira Kenley shares her creative dilemmas and decisions every Friday. You can read her earlier posts here
This is my last week writing under the heading ‘Kira’s Story’. Next week, my weekly blog will be called ‘Kira’s Creations.’ Although, it will still be my story somehow it feels like my story has moved into another phase.
I have written 32 blogs (this is my 33rd) and over this period I have put my struggles and my internal wanderings on the page. The hope is that maybe I have understood this life and my part in it a little bit more by seeing it in black and white each week and that, in addition, I might have written a great deal of my fear away.
Imagined fear is such an obstacle and every little creative thing I have done in my life could so easily have been sabotaged by this energy. It still continues although thankfully my awareness means it is less pronounced and not in danger of playing havoc in my daily life as it has done in the past. I keep a watch and somehow, by allowing myself to express this fear fully without censorship or condemnation, it loses it paralysing hold over me and at times it even disappears.
Thankfully, these days I habitually create. Be it a song, a story, a meal, a friendship, a family, a tender moment. Life is all about creating, that is the ethos of this blog. In my experience, true creation is only possible when fear is completely absent. Then there is only joy and enjoyment and out of this sacred space comes what is new. Fresh. Alive.
The creative process is evident everywhere in my life and I have come to realise that if I mindfully travel I can be involved in my life in a deep and profoundly alive way. It is the way I chose to live for after all there is just this life and each moment is here to be lived. To be made. To be created.
Jiddu Krishnamurti (‘K’), whom I believe to be one of the most evolved and beautifully alive human beings to have lived on the planet in the last century, once commented:
“You must understand the whole of life, not just one little part of it. That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies, that is why you must sing, and dance, and write poems, and suffer, and understand, for all that is life.”
Writing this blog has allowed me to “understand” the whole of my life a little more and I am ever grateful for the space it allows me every week to ponder on the page. And for those of you who read and ponder alongside me, I appreciate your time and company.
We are in this together all of us. So let’s as K advised read, look at the skies, sing, dance, write poems, suffer and understand, together. See you next week as part of ‘Kira’s Creations’ and, in the meantime, have yourself a fantastic week…
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